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I am confused DX

Journal Entry: Sat May 17, 2008, 6:31 PM
  • Mood: Tearful
  • Listening to: Full Metal Alchemist
  • Reading: the comp screen
  • Watching: the letters being typed.
  • Playing: the keys on my keyboard
  • Eating: nothing
  • Drinking: Milk!
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As the title says, I am confused. I have so many feelings in my heart right now that I need to let out.

I feel:
confused
tired
lonely
forgotten
pissed
depressed
sinful
lazy
sad
NEGLECTED
hopeless
miserable
and my heart is overflowing with all of these emotions at once. I mostly feel neglected though.

Ryan hasn't been on in forever. His cell phone is broken (buttons dont work). He's not allowed to use the house phone to call me. And he "apparently" is too busy with homework and other shit to get on. I'm sick and tired of it!!! I'm almsot crying right now. I've had a lot of time ot think today and the question that keeps popping in my head is "Is it worth it to be in a relationship if you never talk to the person you're with?" That question has been swirling in my head all day. I;m fuckin sick and tired of this shit!!!!! Either get on and talk to me Ryan or......I don't want to think about it.........but I am. And that's what's making me so mad and so sad right now. That I'm crying while typing this. I don't want to say it but.......Ryan, get on or we're over. I don't want to be in a relationship with someone if I never talk to them. I'D RATHER BE SINGLE!!! :cries:

I need an answer from Ryan. IF YOU REALLY CARE ABOUT US RYAN, THEN GET ON AND PROVE IT!!!!!

~Brandi :(

P.S. I'll prolly end up regretting posting this, but I can't get my feelings inside any longer.

To-Do List:

-Draw more pics of my new character
-Clean my room
-read book and paint backdrop for history.

Club(s) I'm In:

:iconthesclub: :iconjubilations-fanclub: :iconenvy-lovers:

Friends: (In alphabetical order)

:iconairmon: :iconangelivey22: :iconascendedpikachu: :iconatlanta-hammy: :iconawesome-sauce13: :iconaxelai: :iconcharmyc:
:iconcherlnida: :iconcoshy: :icondragonice315: :iconeeveelover84: :iconellipsis911: :iconfiredragonspirit: :iconglowing-tails: :iconh-balth: :iconhitana: :iconinsanepsychohafbreed: :iconjessthebunnie: :iconjubilations: :iconjubilations-fanclub: :iconkelessic: :iconkitsuneshinzui: :iconkyle-b: :iconlittle-wolf-kid: :iconluigirocks84: :iconmelodiastar: :iconmewichigozoey: :iconmusk-parfait: :iconnaxord: :iconnerdy-emo: :iconnintendude219: :iconolimarrulez: :iconpichu90: :iconpikachurulez: :iconpixelocean: :iconpokemonbecky505: :iconsakura1430: :iconsakura-hammy: :iconscott-chu: :iconseraphon: :iconsexy-sexy-vampire: :iconshinypika23: :iconsinceresnow: :iconspeedy-kit: :icontechangeldemon: :iconthelonelyqueen: :icontheman01: :iconthesclub: :icontristan-chan: :iconxxxumbreonxxx:

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~Ellipsis911 May 17, 2008, 6:51:07 PM
:hug::hug::hug:

I hopes you fweel bwetter swoon. ;A;

You know... I'm having my own problems at the moment as well... I'm most likely in love with one of my so-called 'friends', and I can't do anything about it. I want to get rid of the damned feeling, but, meh. "It's better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all." =3

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To KairiWillow: Ren fangirls we shall be!
~windchime25, ~Ellipsis911, =fierystar and ~kairiwillow are the four Hitsugaya-stalkers! >3
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~MnkyJen90210 May 17, 2008, 6:57:59 PM
Thanks :glomp:

Yeah, I've been reading your journals. And that quote, so true X3

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"We enjoy the night, the darkness, where we can do things that aren't acceptable in the light. Night is when we slake our thirst."
-William Hill
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~ShinyPika23 May 17, 2008, 7:02:01 PM
I know how you feel. I've been hurt by my school. My principal! And now I'm stuck at home, not allowed to attend classes while still having to do school- and homework. A girl frequently got me in trouble because I tried to help her, and get treated like shit! I feel ready to.........too!!

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Chuchu is watching...and waiting...for something fun to happen! Play with Chuchu today!
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~MnkyJen90210 May 17, 2008, 7:05:20 PM
That sucks. I'd hate to have to stay home. I'd be grounded from the computer and TV and I wouldn't be able to talk to my friends. I'd feel even worse than I do now. At least I'm not the only person who feels this way.

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"We enjoy the night, the darkness, where we can do things that aren't acceptable in the light. Night is when we slake our thirst."
-William Hill
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~Ellipsis911 May 17, 2008, 7:14:29 PM
^-^

Hehe... Yeah... Well... I need some sort of help, I guess. XDD

Yeah, teh quote is true... :3

--
To KairiWillow: Ren fangirls we shall be!
~windchime25, ~Ellipsis911, =fierystar and ~kairiwillow are the four Hitsugaya-stalkers! >3
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~MnkyJen90210 May 17, 2008, 7:16:39 PM
Does he know?

yep lol :P

--
"We enjoy the night, the darkness, where we can do things that aren't acceptable in the light. Night is when we slake our thirst."
-William Hill
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~pikachurulez May 17, 2008, 7:19:44 PM
.........................:depressed::cries::(

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"War does not determine who is right. Only who is left." -Wadsworth
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~MnkyJen90210 May 17, 2008, 7:20:35 PM
........I'm sorry. :(

--
"We enjoy the night, the darkness, where we can do things that aren't acceptable in the light. Night is when we slake our thirst."
-William Hill
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~pikachurulez May 17, 2008, 7:21:11 PM
No, i'ts all my fault. :(

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"War does not determine who is right. Only who is left." -Wadsworth
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~MnkyJen90210 May 17, 2008, 7:22:12 PM
Well, I don't mean to be rude or anything but, what are ya gonna do 'bout it?

--
"We enjoy the night, the darkness, where we can do things that aren't acceptable in the light. Night is when we slake our thirst."
-William Hill
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